“We must learn to reawaken and keep ourselves awake, not by mechanical aids, but by an infinite expectation of the dawn.”- Henry David Thoreau
There have been many times that I have spent my life mired in the depths of despair so, when I read this quote by Thoreau, I was touched by the phrase “infinite expectation of the dawn.” What a powerful juxtaposition of words. Dawn speaks to me of new beginnings. What would it look like if everyone were walking around seeing the world with possibilities abounding each new day rather than perceiving barriers everywhere they turned? Instead of saying “No, but..”, the world would be full of people who were saying “Yes, and…”
For myself, there have been two divorces, physical and mental challenges, deaths, disillusionments, abandonments, and all of the other arrows of misfortune that Life throws at us. I’ve been down, sometimes for months in these repeating, negative patterns of behavior, but somehow, with the help of others, have dusted myself off and kept going. For me, holistic healing has the easiest times being when I could see a clear end to the woe… “OK, in X days, this will be finished”. Those times have always been the easiest for me, as I can withstand quite a bit if I know approximately how long it’s going to take. It’s those undetermined lengths of time that leave me begging for relief from the Universe. “When is this going to end????” is my usual plea. My “ordeal” feels endless, and as a result, hurts worse.
Trusting in the Universe is what keeps me going, and that’s not easy to elicit sometimes when it’s 3am and dark outside. What has made it easier for me to believe in is when I look through the eyes of someone who has already crossed over. I’ll ask a question like “Why did you have to die that way?” or “Why did you have to suffer so much at the end?”. When I look through their eyes, I know that I’m seeing things, but very little can I make out or identify. I describe it as if a caveman were put down in the middle of modern day Times Square in New York City. He’d be able to identify people, dogs, and horses, but little else would have meaning to him, as the context wouldn’t be familiar. However, when I “borrow” the eyes of those who have crossed over, I know that they “get” the answers to the questions that I’m asking, and their acceptance in the Divine Plan is enough for me. I’ll get my complete answers when it’s my turn to cross over.
I’m looking out my studio window right now as I write this and I’m marveling at the play of light on the leaves and the variety of shapes, even on the same tree. I could be annoyed by the snap, snap, snap of a nail gun as my neighbor’s roof is getting new shingles, but instead I’m choosing to focus on the beauty that is before me. It’s all about choice for me, and I’m working on remembering that each new day brings us “infinite expectation(s) of the dawn” and the beautiful experiences that can come with that way of being in the world.
How have you not been utilizing the “infinite expectations of the dawn”? What will you do differently today?
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