In the last posting, I discussed a chaos funnel. They are metaphysical structures, that we usually set up prenatally, and they can keep us constantly spinning in circles. If I’m working with someone whose life seems to be in constant turmoil, or they’re the one to whom “bad” things are always happening, the first place I look is to check to see if this metaphysical structure of a chaos funnel is involved with that person and how it’s affecting their lives.
Well, under the category of what better place to look than myself, I’ve found quite a lot of material to work on with my own entrance into my mother’s Fallopian tube. Very early on, when I was first starting my healing path back in 2004, I knew that once I was inside of the tube, my egg slammed against the inside of the wall. Dazed, if you believe, as I do, that out consciences are sentient from second one of manifestation, my poor egg was afraid to continue any further down the tube. Obviously, it did, because here I am, but the process was less than optimal for me. (It’s kind of interesting to look out through the “eyes” of my egg, and see it’s little world from its perspective.)
So, the night that I began to work on this discovery for my own issue, I allowed myself to sink into the vortex, and just be with the swirling around me, which at first was a very panicky feeling. As I continued to “be”” with the sensations, I realized that the toxins that were being released into my body from the multiple infections that I have was creating fear, especially in my legs at night. In turn, the fear, which I was experiencing as pian, was keeping me from vibrating at a higher frequency. (…and doing a pretty good job of distracting me, I might add!) That higher frequency is needed, I feel, to move towards a more multi-dimensional body, and what that would be like and the uncertainty of it, makes for another source of fear. Thus, a vicious cycle, with the accompanying pain and the never continuing cycle of ailments was set up for me at this very early stage of my development.
For now, I’m working on setting aside time every day to just allow the chaos and swirling to wash over me. As a result, the recent infection seems to be going down. I also have more of a sense of inner peace. However, I found this delightful web site on a more Zen look at chaos and how to use it to an advantage in your life. I especially liked the quote that began the page… ‘You must have chaos within you to give birth to a dancing star.’ ~Friedrich Nietzsche. As a former Science teacher, I know that stars and planets do form from the chaos out in the Universe, but if I’m going to be able to take advantage of that philosophy, I’m going to need a lot more practice of being in the Flow first, as I already can generate quite a bit of chaos. Why is it so much easier to work on someone else than myself?
Why do you think it’s easier to work on someone else’s issues than your own, or do you feel that that statement is just a belief among healers?
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