In a previous posting, I wrote about how I achieved my intuitive abilities this lifetime. Of all of these aptitudes, the one that I most depend on for helping my clients is my clairvoyance, or ability to see. However, there have been four times in the last eight years that I have been on this spiritual path, that I have gone “psychically blind”. The first time was for a month, and it was incredibly devastating.
I was asked by the Divine if I wanted to move to the next level of understanding, and of course, I enthusiastically said yes. I was told OK, but I would have to do without my inner sight, and things promptly went dark. (Be SO very careful what you ask for in this work!) As you can imagine, I was quite upset, because at the time, my visions were my major way of helping my clients. I was told, not to worry, I would figure something out, and there I sat in my inner darkness.
I felt very helpless, as I imagine that someone who suddenly goes physically blind must feel. I was still seeing clients, and so I had to quickly depend on other resources to give them feedback during their sessions. My sense of clairaudience, or intuitive hearing became more acute. I became aware of more depths or layers of hearing than I had known before. I also realized that there was something in some layers that I was perceiving but not knowing, so I learned to just “be” with what was there in order to get a sense of its’ meaning.
While in the past, I had been able to know certain qualities of an issue by the way that it tasted in my mouth, that ability became more acute. For me, tasting an issue is not so much about an actual physical sensation , but more about knowing that something tastes sharp, or fuzzy, which are not usual terms to describe tastes. Some impressions, especially those of strong curses, taste especially foul, and I then will often wipe my tongue with a terry cloth towel to get them off. All of these perceptions were definitely felt on my tongue, so I describe them as “tasting an issue”.
I have always had mild synesthesia, which is a neurological condition in which stimulation of one sensory path automatically stimulates another, unrelated sense. Common forms of this condition are when people see certain colors when they hear a particular sound, or hear music when they see certain patterns. Mine is more kinesthetic, so an example of how I sometimes know things is when I spoke above when I said that a particular issue tasted sharp, as in pointy. I certainly drew on my synesthetic abilities when I was inwardly “blind”.
Finally, after about one month, I awoke one day and could see more clearly behind my closed eyes than I had ever before. I asked the Divine, “Why now?”, and was told that I had healed enough and learned enough lessons that my sight could be restored. I have no idea exactly what had transpired to allow my ability to return, but was delighted that it had. Since then, I have had three other, much shorter periods of time, in which I could no longer see inwardly. Having had my sight return before, during the other three times, I assumed that being patient, trusting, and most importantly, giving up the need to control any outcome, my sight would return, which it did.
Have you ever had any abilities temporarily disappear? How did you handle it and what did you learn?
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