Caught in the Web of My Own Making – Subtle Self-Sabotage

Caught in a Web of My Own Making

Caught in a Web of My Own Making

Nancy Smeltzer, MFA

Did you ever play the game of Cat’s Cradle? It usually is played by two people with a string tied making a circle. The string circle goes around the outstretched fingers of the two players. With a series of moves, strings are wrapped around certain fingers, dropped, and others picked up until the final shape can be made. There are even some that catch the other player’s hand in a trap. Web games like that are fun and kept us amused on the playground when I was little until it was time to go back inside. However, as an adult, getting caught in a web of my own making is tiring at best, and often draining at worst.

In a previous posting I talked about how our unconscious mind or the one that is known as the reptilian brain, is deep inside, fearful like a two year old with monsters under the bed. Then, while the person is aware that the same things keep repeating over and over, they probably don’t know how to change the situation. The type of self sabotage that I’m talking about today is more like being caught in the thin strands of a spider’s web than the full force of an engulfing self-sabotage. Then, a person may not even know that they keep doing the same things over and over, although to others, it’s perfectly obvious.

My take is that this type of self-sabotage is a corruption of what was taught to be to be called the Golden Web. In it, all life forms exist in perfection, and are connected with thins strands like spider strands that with practice, allow the person to “know” that they are a part of all life forms. Many cultures, including Native Americans, speak about being one with nature, and being just one small piece of the whole. However, something seems to go awry with the Golden Web in certain individuals, which causes them to be entangled in a web of their own making.

There are certain mantras, or what I call Gaia commands, that can heal that flaw, and allow the person to know the beauty of becoming one with the Universe. While there are several in the series, the first can be used as an entrance to allow you to experience some of the awe and wonder of being in that sacred presence. It goes “Know life; Be as One.” and I invite you to use it as part of your daily rituals to help sever those threads, while thin, that bind you into what are often destructive behaviors.

An aside: I am also a textile artist, and have always been fascinated by spider webs. Here’s a 10 min video on You Tube about a piece of weaving that was woven using the silk of golden spiders.

 What kind of repeating patterns of self-sabotage hold you back? Just like a spider’s web can be very strong when an insect gets caught in it, the webs we make can bind us just as strongly.

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About Nancy Smeltzer

I'm passionate about long distance spiritual and alternative healing, having had a successful practice now for over ten years. My clients work with me over the phone and on Skype from all over the USA and Canada, as well as Switzerland, Russia, and Australia. I specialize in helping people heal their negative repeating patterns of behavior and remove the stuck energy in their unconscious minds. By doing that, they can quit going round and round in circles,. repeating the same mistakes, and move forward to having the life of their dreams. Besides my holistic healing practice, I've also been professionally creating art quilts and other fiber arts for over 30 years. My specialty is contemporary beaded art quilts. On my web site, I bill myself as the "Self Proclaimed Button and Bead Queen of Maryland (USA)." My recent works have images that are based on what I see when I tap into a person's energy field and are called Meditation Gardens. These visionary art pieces are the perfect place for that person to play and meditate. In my spare time, I'm a rabid, avid "dirty nails" gardener, composing scenes with plants. Sometimes, I come inside so dirty that my clothes have to go straight into the washing machine; they're too dirty for the dirty clothes hamper! -The Official Google + site for Nancy Smeltzer
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