As I get back into my life after my mother’s death, I find that many of the things that I thought I had already healed have re-surfaced. One of those is chronic pain. My take is not that I undid anything, (which was often the case when I first started on this spiritual path), but rather a deeper layer that I’m now allowing to come up since I’m not running on adrenaline any more. While it’s true that not doing my Egoscue exercises for five weeks didn’t help my back, the emotional issues that were coming up for me definitely contributed to my pain. My back was in spasms, which squashed my gall bladder, and those toxins inflamed my kidneys. I was in so much pain, that I spent two weeks pretty much in bed. That’s when several alternative healing practices came into play.
It’s then when having peers to help see my blind spots was incredibly useful. While I have no problem helping my clients and seeing what needs to come up next for them to heal their issues, when it comes to myself, that’s often another story. My colleagues reminded me that allowing the body sensations to be there and to stop trying to “see” and figure out what was going on was paramount to moving forward. Allowing uncomfortable to painful body sensations to be there is very counter to what Western society proposes, especially in the media, where there’s a pill for everything with amazing results promised. What may even seem more radical to some is actually getting to a place where you’re thanking your body for trying to give you a message, even if that message is pain and you don’t get what your body is trying to tell you.
Buddhism is one religion that does pay some attention to body sensations. “Everything that arises in the mind flows with sensations” is attributed to the Buddha. However, just as with many religions, for myself, I find that many, many layers have been placed on the original teachings of the Great Masters, which can make for confusion as to how to proceed. What I and my colleagues have found is that my noticing the body sensation, (in my case, pain), not judging it or trying to make it go away, reassuring your body and thanking it for the message (even if you have no idea what it is), and as a result, pretty quickly, the body sensations can go away.
Now, I know that chronic pain is probably one of the biggest distractions there is to keep you from listening to your body. For me, I would often get stuck in what I call a “feedback loop”. “It hurts, it hurts, it still hurts, when is it going to end? It still hurts”, were some of the racing thoughts that would go through my mind. However, with practice, you can learn to recognize such a feedback coming on and stop it in its tracks.
So, what was going on with me a few weeks ago when I was in so much pain? Yes, I “knew” what I just wrote above, but for me, I was coming up with some deep abandonment issues. brought up by my mother’s death, and the loss of a friend and a guy I was dating. LOTS of stuff all piling up at once, and for me, at the time, it was pretty overwhelming. That’s when I was incredibly grateful to have someone to help me get through the stuck energy I wasn’t allowing myself to see.
As I said, I’m brilliant at seeing other people’s blind spots and how they’re going around in circles of repetitive patterns (because I’ve gone through my own patterns, it’s easy to recognize those of others). If you’d be interested in learning how we could work together to break your patterns, then please contact me at… email@example.com and let’s talk about getting you some relief.
What do you do when uncomfortable body sensations some up? Do you take a pill, or do you have a more natural way of dealing with the sensation?
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